Last week I spent 4 days in Phoenix and was able to spend a little bit of time with friends and my sister. It was wonderful to see people that I love and have missed, but at the same time it was...weird. Lives have continued on without me; my life has continued on without them. There are things in my life they cannot relate to and vice versa. I don't really fit in anymore and yet I don't really fit in in Rome either. I don't have a support system, a group of friends to return to. It feels almost as if I don't belong anywhere anymore. I don't seem to have a place to land. I don't know what to do with that exactly. What is the Lord doing in this? What is His plan in the midst of this?
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Kristen....
I can't relate fully to what you are feeling...but there have been times in my life where I feel like everything has moved on and I am stuck in limbo...
Remember... you DO always have THE support system in Rome.. God is where ever you are. Read through some of Paul's letters in the Bible.. he was in prision... had no one and nothing... but some of the greatest worship and love notes come out of it...
You are right - it is hard... it is SO much better to have have friends and the support around BUT then do you rely of them more than you rely on God... God should be our first go to... and he's not a lot of the time in my own life.... what's He teaching you right now...
We kinda talked about the whole significant other thing... is God working on you so that WHEN you DO get married - you don't depend on him but on HIM?
I LOVE YA SIS and am so GRATEFUL that you spent some time here with us!!! What an honor!
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