Yep, I've taken the plunge into the world of online dating. I still don't know why I did it exactly. It's certainly something that I've thought about doing, but thought it was something that I would wait to get into once I was back in the States permanently. I don't think it's fair to me or to another person to begin something and then leave for three months, come back for one, and leave for another 5. Somehow I don't think that's the healthiest way to start a relationship. And yet, I created an online profile on Friday and joined a dating site. It was almost like an out of body experience because I don't know what I was thinking or why I decided to do it, but I suspect that watching "Say Yes to the Dress" in the afternoons, helping my sister plan her June wedding, and hanging out with my new niece may have contributed to my temporary insanity.
Online dating. Sigh. From what I understand the stigma that used to be attached to Internet dating isn't there anymore, but I still find the whole thing a little disconcerting. I mean in a way it's meant to be a lot less vulnerable than say going to a bar or something, but I find it incredibly vulnerable. I mean people are looking at information and pictures of you and then deciding whether or not they want to send you some questions. If your picture isn't flattering or your profile isn't great, then you get rejected by multiple people at one time. Ouch!
So...here's where I'm at with this. I am terrified. I feel so exposed and I hate it. You would think after my last post I wouldn't venture into something like this just yet, but I'm rather impulsive and just don't think things through first. This being one of those times. A whole lot of stuff is coming up with this "experiment" of mine. Let's hope it doesn't blow up in my face....
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