So, four years ago I lost my job because it was "eliminated." Fine...whatever. I can deal with that. In all honesty, I learned more about God's strength and power after that than ever before. I learned more about myself at that time than ever before. It was hard and it sucked, but at the same time it was something of a blessing.
And now, it's happening again. I returned to the company that I'd been let go from 3 years ago. Today two of my co-workers were "restructured" and I have a feeling more is to come. It's just weird to be in this place again. I want to be ok with it, to acccept what the Lord has for me in this. But, my humanity is crying out to be spared because how will I live? How will I pay my bills??? All of the stuff that the Lord came thru with before. Wouldn't He do that again? I mean come on! How many times do we have to love thru all of this before we get it thru our heads! God is a God of mercy, grace, and love...He cares for those who serve Him. He cares enough for the sparrows of the air and the lilies of the field...how much more will He care for me?!
I want to abandon myself to Him, to live like nothing/no one can touch me because of who I am in Christ. Let this be my prayer....and if I do not get to stay here this year...then bring that as well!
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