Ouch...right between the eyes

I was reading a devotional online this morning about integrity and character. I consider myself to be someone with integrity and character. I want to do the right thing; be a peson above reproach. And then, I got to the last paragraph of the devotional:
"Our integrity is often tested through our finances. How we handle our money is a true sign of our character and it seems that Christians are under the spotlight more than others. By paying for the land, Abraham was not under obligation to the landowners. When in debt, we are obligated to the lenders. When in debt, it is hard to make wise choices because our need for money can overshadow the right decision. Pray about your finances and ask the Lord to guide you in all decisions regarding money, even in issues of debt. Integrity and character are far more valuable in comparison."
Oohhhh....that one hurts. I am not living with integrity with regards to my finances. I am in debt and yet, I continue to spend money! My eyes are dazzled by bright and shiny new things...things that really don't matter. How many pairs of shoes do I really need? Do I really have to have a piece of jewelry to match every outfit? Hmmmm...I am tempted to say lots and yes, but I know in my heart that that's not true and that I am not honoring God in my choices. I don't want to be in debt. It makes me sick....thinking about all that I owe and what I could do with my life if I wasn't paying for the mistakes of my past. I suppose, though, if I were to really live a life affected by Christ and His Spirit I must leave the old behind and put on the new. (and I'm not talking about a new pair of BCBG pumps!) Ok....so, this is my public declaration...I am going to give up shopping and get out of debt! I have to! I want to move to Italy and I can't very well do that with debt hanging over my head.

So, Lord please forgive me for my sin...and give me the strength to choose that which is right and pleasing in your eyes and not my flesh!