Saturday, April 4, 2009

Freedom

Do you remember that scene in Braveheart when Mel Gibson's character was trying to inspire his troops before battle and at the very end he yells out "they may take our lives, but they'll never take our freedom?" Got it in your head? Maybe morph it a little and see him not so much in Scotland, but in an office. Maybe morph it again and not see Mel, but me...and that's about how my day went.

I had been dreading this week for some time because I would 1) have to deal with the reality that I wouldn't be in my job next year and thus meet the person who may replace me and 2) tell my boss when my last day is. 

I have been dreading #1 because for me goodbyes and my leaving have never been good. Ultimately, I have been forgotten and replaced...and that scares me. I know I have mentioned this a lot the last couple of weeks and I don't want to feel this way, but I do. I know intellectually that this isn't the case, but emotionally is another story. However, I met the guy...and I have nothing to worry about. He has nothing on  me personally. I don't mean that arrogantly or pridefully, rather I just mean that I will leave my own legacy and what God has done through me can't be reversed or erased.

I have been dreading #2 because well, let's face it, my boss is a jerk and I didn't want to deal with his head games. So, I went in to tell him and he didn't care. I was worried for nothing. 

It's a liberating feeling to feel this free. I feel as if the weight of the world has been lifted from my shoulders. I give all glory and honor to Jesus because without Him...I could not have made it through. He has been my rock and my safe harbor. I love him and am so thankful. 

I also have to thank my friends for supporting me, praying for me, loving me, and encouraging me. They're amazing....I am better for having them in my life. 

So, as I head to bed I can rest in the knowledge that this week was a blessing in disguise...I got to see and feel God's peace, I got to trust my friend's with my heart....and I have tasted the sweetness of FREEDOM!!!!

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