Advocating for me

I am in the midst of trying to know how to word an email. I have very strong feelings about the subject of the email, but I can't seem to get the words out. I think it's because I am afraid. I'm afraid to stand up for myself and use my voice. I have learned the importance of doing this, but in this instance with this person I am finding it difficult.

I think it's because I don't feel safe with this person and I, more often than not, feel taken advantage by this person. I feel like they're more apt to point out all of my misgivings and failures, but not protect me, foster an environment where I am cared for...allowed to rest. And so because of that I don't feel like I can say "No". I want to, but I don't feel like I can. What's being asked of me, though, is fairly comical. I feel like such a non-entity, but so much is expected and almost demanded of me. I am happy to give 100% so long as I have some time to me and some time to recharge. AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

It's funny because last night at Bible study I made the point that in the notes from our previous lesson it said  something to the effect that we should not fear the judgements others make of what they may perceive as our failures because Jesus knows who we are and we can trust who God has called us to be. Huh? So, I shouldn't fear as I write this email because I know who God made me to be and who He has called me to be. Didn't think that God would provide me a tangible example of how to apply the Truth that He revealed to me so soon. Still....what to write? What to write??