Saturday, October 11, 2008

His Answer

So, I went to bed last night with my iPod on. I was listening to Adam Watts and this is what I heard:

I could fall apart
Before I start
In the grip of doubt
I need You, Lord
Will You carry me
Take hold of me
When I can't see
An open door
In the dark Your light illuminates love
And Your grace is right beside me

I will not fear
'cause I know You're here
And I pray You'll cover me with Your love
And show me You're enough
I will not fear
'cause I feel You here
Lord, will You come
and turn what was fear into love

Will You lead my life and dry my eyes
When the pain inside's a lonely war
Can my worry be a memory
That fades away more and more
In the dark
Your light illuminates love
And Your grace is right beside me

I will not fear
'cause I know You're here
And I pray You'll cover me with Your love
And show me You're enough
I will not fear
'cause I feel You here
Lord, will You come and turn what was fear into love

In the dark Your light illuminates love
And Your grace is right beside me
I will not fear
'cause I know You're here
And I pray You'll cover me with Your love
And show me You're enough
I will not fear
'cause I feel You here
Lord, will You come and turn what was fear into love
Into love...Into love...Into love...Into love...

It hit my heart like a bolt of lightening and I began to feel a spark of something in the midst of nothing. To say that I am feeling better about where I find myself isn´t true...but I am on the mend. I know in my head that I am where He wants me...that He is in control...but it´s hard to listen and recognize reality when my heart feels like it´s being ripped apart.

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1 comment:

Cheryl said...

Dear Kristen, I just stumbled across your blog by accident while looking at blog designs. I must say, though, that it really tugged at my heart. I don't know anything about you other than you want to find someone to love you. I guess it spoke to me because that was me several years ago. I'm middle-aged now, and the love of my life finally did come, but unfortunately, we only had a few years before God took him home. I'm fine now, but for a while, I was angry with God. He does have a plan for you, Kristen, as so many people have told you. It may not be the same plan that you see for yourself. That's what I keep telling my son. Things have not worked out for him as he thought either. Sometimes, we have to let go of our dreams to let God have free reign in our lives. I so wish you the best. I hope you find love, and happiness, and laughter, but most of all, I hope you find and enjoy God's will for your life. Sincerely and prayerfully, Cheryl Shaver