Passing thru my life

I've been home for the last 3 weeks. It has been so good to be home, to not have to think thru every little thing, to be known by those around me. And yet, it's a little unsettling at the same time. It's as if I'm a visitor in my own life. Does that make sense?

Last week I spent 4 days in Phoenix and was able to spend a little bit of time with friends and my sister. It was wonderful to see people that I love and have missed, but at the same time it was...weird. Lives have continued on without me; my life has continued on without them. There are things in my life they cannot relate to and vice versa. I don't really fit in anymore and yet I don't really fit in in Rome either. I don't have a support system, a group of friends to return to. It feels almost as if I don't belong anywhere anymore. I don't seem to have a place to land. I don't know what to do with that exactly. What is the Lord doing in this? What is His plan in the midst of this?