Today has been a pretty crappy day and quite honestly the thought of just packing up and heading home is ridiculously tempting to say the least. There's just a lot going on and I'm overwhelmed by the enormity of it. It didn't help that some things were said and requested in our community meeting this morning that triggered my eating disorder as well. Mind you I didn't do anything...didn't binge or anything like that, but the urge was debilitating in some ways.
I know that this is where I am to be. I know that God has a purpose in my being here. But right now it's just hard to see that and to trust that when everything just comes crashing over me.
I can't say that my entire day sucked. There were some bright points. First, I received a wonderful, and much needed, card of encouragement from a student. Second, I went to my first Bible study class and was encouraged. And third, I talked to my mom and that always makes things all better.
I know that this is a season and it will pass. It just sucks having to go thru it and feel so alone here in it. Please pray for me in this and that the Lord would in deed be my rock and my comforter.
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