Well...that ended badly

You know, I try to do the right thing by people. I try to be honest, up front, and real. And this isn't always easy, not because I want to lie, but because I don't want to hurt people's feelings. I tend to be a little more tactful/soft so as not to hurt someone and it's sometimes to my own detriment. So when I decided in June that I needed to just come out and tell "C" that I didn't think we should see each other anymore it was a really hard decision for me and I knew that it would be uncomfortable and awkward. I didn't want to do it and was happy when I was stood up.

Since I've been back, though, he has called me close to 9 times and I knew that I had to confront the situation. The next time he called I was saying "Arrivederci." Easier said than done....

He called today while I was eating lunch with Lynda. I had asked her earlier this week if she would be there when I talked to him for nothing more than moral support. (And her being the amazing friend that she is agreed.) So he called and asked to get together for coffee. I told him that I couldn't because of work and that I didn't  think we were compatible because of my relationship with Jesus. And yet, he persisted and kept asking me out. And asking me out. And asking me out. AHHHHHHHHHH!!! I was being clear. I didn't know how to be any more clearer. Finally, I think the bulb went on in his head and he got it because the line suddenly went dead. Two seconds later I received a text cursing me in Italian. So, that's how it's going to be? Gotcha.

I know that this wasn't the relationship that God wanted for me. I know that he wasn't who I was supposed to be with, but is a little maturity, a little common decency too much to ask for? I guess so.

Here's what I don't get. I didn't lead him on. I didn't do him wrong. I wasn't something that I'm not nor did I promise anything. We went out for coffee. Twice. Where's the disconnect? And it's not as if I think I'm the most amazing person to ever grace the face of this earth that the lack of me in one's life would cause such heartache, such pain, such an emptiness that they would lash out in this way. I just don't get it. Am I naive or missing something? I don't think so....clearly, though, he is and I am better off for not having him in my life any longer. Still....what a good story.