Regrets

I am questioning whether or not I did the right thing. There's this empty hole in the pit of me that is growing larger and deeper as I think through what I did last night. Was it the right thing to do? Was it my decision? Was God involved? Am I doing what I need and she needs me to do? Have I acted outside of God's Will?

I was talking to my mom about it on the way in to work and if possible I feel even worse about the situation. When she answered she told me that she was just about to call and leave me a message because she wanted to tell me that she was thinking of me this morning and wanted me to know how much she loves me and how beautiful I am. I needed to hear that from her. So, I told her what had transpired and then just before she hung up she said that she was feeling conflicted because she knows that what I did was right, but that maybe she wasn't being objective...rather just taking my 'side' in the matter. After all, this person has no one. She is practically all alone in this world. And as my mom said, she has no one to call her and tell her how much she is loved and that she's beautiful. And I swear that at that moment a piece of my heart literally broke off.

I know that I take my family and friends for granted. So, when someone points that out with a tangible example of someone who doesn't have that well, ouch.

Please pray. Pray for this woman, pray for me, and pray for the situation. That's all I can do now...