Homesickness

I have been in PA for a little over a week. It seems like time has both flown and crawled by. I'm feeling a little off in that I expected this to be a hard week, one full of tears and calls home because I was lonely, missed my family and friends...homesick. This hasn't been the way at all. That's not to say that I haven't been lonely, because I have; haven't missed friends and family, because I have; haven't been homesick, because I have. Rather, I haven't cried, haven't called home upset. Nothing. And in all honesty, this concerns me. I have, however, noticed other behaviors. Ones that I haven't seen in almost a year and a half and so it took me some time to recognize what they were. 

I wish instead that there were overwhelming feelings...any feelings. Instead, it's just like there's this numbness...nothing. And I don't want to go back to not having emotions or feelings. I want to be able to feel stuff, experience sadness, pain, sorrow, joy, excitement. 

I know that I need to reach out. I need to call my dietician in particular and tell her what's going on. But I haven't. Please pray that I do before this little bump in the road becomes a giant hole that swallows me whole.